New year....New start

Let me start by saying happy new year to you all :)

Well it appears i survived my first christmas with diabetes! Although i did think back to the previous christmases.....eating selection boxes for breakfast....nuts, chocolates inbetween meals, then the christmas dinner with all the trimmings...followed by a massive bowl of trifle! (yes i really did eat that much!) :) So this year i decided not to deny myself anything and just go careful...i think i did ok had a few highs which was expected but nothing really major and no lows either which i was happy about, but i did jack up a hell of alot of insulin to compensate!

...So the year of 2011 has started and unlike the previous years i didnt make any resolutions as i dont tend to keep them so there is no point really! My year started ok, im now back at work and it feels good to be back into a routine again, not wasting my days sitting around doing nothing as i am used to lol. I became an auntie in december to a beautiful baby girl called chloe :) who is now just over a month old!

I am feeling alot more positive about this year and decided to start taking better care of myself and looking out for number one for a change, to stop worrying so much and enjoy life without letting the d get the better of me.

The year has gone soo quick and my diabetic birthday is approaching fast, i think i have accomplished alot this year and been through alot....coming out the other side as a stronger person and ready to handle anything thats thrown at me in 2011....so bring it on!!!

2010 review.....

So here is a brief summary of my year 2010....


1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before? Started blogging :)

2. Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions from last year and will you make any for 2011? Nope i didnt make any this year as i never stick to them

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yep, my niece was born on the 5th december :)

4. Did anyone close to you die? Nobody died.....although i could say my pancreas did....

5. What countries did you visit? No holidays this year...:(

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? More confidence, a better diet, and more will power.....maybe a nice man too? lol

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory...and why? 21-02-10 my diagnosis day

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Not sure it counts as an achievement....but having to deal with all the shit i have had this year and coming out the other side as a stronger person

9. What was your biggest failure? I admit to failure...but again have become a stronger person because of it

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Diagnosis of diabetes, syatica, anemia, various colds, bugs, broken teeth...shall i go on?

11. What was the best thing you bought? I dont have the money to treat myself to much lately but i would say my christmas do was worth the money :)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? will have to come back to this one...


13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I can't really answer this

14. Where did most of your money go? Paying the rent and bills, and the food shop....i dont have much money to myself these days

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? The thing i was most exited about was my christmas work do with all the girls, and starting the new year :)

16. What song will always remind you of 2010? Oh there is loads...umm i think the song i most danced to was we no speak americano..brings back good memories haha

17. Compared to last year, are you...
...happier/sadder? Sadder in a way having everything to deal with, but things are improving
...thinner/fatter? Put on a bit due to the whole diabetes thing
...richer/poorer? A little richer due to my second job :)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? talking to people about how i was feeling....not bottling it all up, should of had more fun and not let the D get the better of me

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? worrying and stressing about everything

20. How will you be spending New Year's Eve? I spent my new years eve with good company and a few drinks down the local bar

21. Did you fall in love in 2010? Do shoes count...? then no :(


23. What was your favorite TV program? love come dine with me,inbetweeners, misfits and also catching up on my prison break episodes

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? i dont think i hate anyone - maybe dislike is a better word


26. What was your greatest musical discovery? I wouldnt say i discovered any but i found lots of new artists i like

27. What did you want AND get? A double bed, which i got it for my birthday, and my tattoo :)

28. What did you want and NOT get? I really need some GHDs and am still waiting lol

29. What was your favorite film of the year? Ooo its a tie between inception, shutter island, and kick ass

30. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you? I turned 22 this year and celebrated at wok with a massive slice of cake...and then celebrated with friends at the weekend :)

31. What ONE thing would have made your year immensely more satisfying? Well thats obvious....Mr right lol.... i can dream :)

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? not sure how to describe it...just casual and me :)

33. What kept you sane? Friends and family

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Omg has to be Mr Jonny Depp (as a pirate ;) ) and channing tatum, dane cook, and of course ben affleck

35. What political issues stirred you the most? everything to do with the recession and credit crunch

36. Whom did you miss? friends who i havent seen in a while because of either losing touch, or moving away

37. Who was the best new person you met? i met lots of great people :)

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson that you learned in 2010. My health comes first before anything else and also to always be myself

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "do you ever feel like breaking down, do you ever feel out of place, like somehow you just dont belong, and no one understands you" Simple plan - welcome to my life

Snow joke!

Well this was what greeted us when we awoke thursday morning...a complete winter wonderland with 5 inches of snow! I then recieved a phone call and a text from both my work places saying they were closed so i had a snow day! :D

In all the years i have lived in eastleigh we have never EVER had this much snow and also i think the last time we had snow actually in December was more than 20 years ago. It was so nice to go out and enjoy the snow (apart from when i fell over...) and even better when i got another phone call saying the schools were to remain closed so i got two days off work in total :)

Levels were acting strange due to the cold weather as well...lower than usual and i remember one day where i didnt take any of my fast acting insulin.. :o

So the snow days wer cool....but then it all turned to slush and ice at the weekend...pissed down with rain and now its all gone and life returns to normal :(

Ah well it was nice when it lasted and hope you all enjoyed it :)

A Little Bit Longer Music Video

Wow i heard this song for the first time yesterday and i would think it very hard for anyone suffering an incurable disease not to cry to this....Written by the jonas brothers after brother Nick was diagnosed with type one diabetes :(

The diabetes prayer...

So i was looking through the diabetes uk facebook page the other day, looking for anything that would remotely cheer me up.. and came across a post from Zara Haram and it did just that and so i share with you....

THE DIABETES PRAYER

Our banting that art with best,
hallowed be thy insulin.
Our hypos come...thy glucogen,
on the shelf that art in fridge.
Give us this day our pump.
Forgive us these cakes as we forgive who made them.
Lead us not into hospital, but deliver us from DKA.
Yours is the blood test, the HBA1C,
forever and ever,
Insulin pen.

Brilliant Zara you really cheered me up with this - i thank you x

Bad blogger..!!

I hav'nt given up on my blog, i have just been having some tough times as of late...no change there i guess!

So a quick update.....turns out my body doesnt just lack insulin, it also lacks red blood cells! so yeh a recent blood test shows i am anemic and i am taking iron tablets (when i remember..) to combat this...more medication whoopee!!

As for diabetes control i started off well a couple of weeks ago with good readings all day and eating relatively well...then last week it all went totally wrong!!sort of gone to pot a little this week but i shall be better next week hopefully be back on the straight and narrow!

One bit of exiting news is that in the next week i shall become an auntie to a little girl :) (already one day overdue but we are hoping she will arrive soon)

As for me i have been feeling crappy all week due to an icky cold i have picked up which is making my levels a little erratic and also making the syatica play up more than usual. Also due to my day off last week i am already down 60 quid in my december pay packet...so looks like christmas will be celebrated in january next year...

I am trying to think positive about everything i really am its just so hard when u have had so much shit all through your life and nothing good seems to happen...ever! i just need a break...something good to happen is that too much to ask really?

Well thanks for reading and lets hope the next week brings good things (see thinking positive!)

xx

What a difference a millimetre makes..!!

So i had a major mishap last week where my blood sugars were going absolutely mental and i had no idea why! i was eating the same things and injecting the appropriate amounts of insulin yet my pre-meal readings were ridiculously high and despite adding on a correction, the reading was even higher 4 hours after eating! I saw readings of about 15 every day and at one point i think i had to give myself a 16 unit correction just to get below 10mmols! I couldnt understand it so phoned my nurse (about 3 hours after she said she wud call me back..straight away) >:( she suggested that my honeymoon period may have ended and advised me to take extra insulin..which i did and saw no improvent...by wednesday i was pretty ill and had to take the day off work which i didnt want to have to do but i could not work as i was.

The next evening i was out having lunch and realised i had forgotten to pack any needles....um i know bad!! desprately reaching the the bottom of my bag i found one of my old 6mm needles and had to use that.....and hey presto 2 hours later i was hypo!!

So all that hassle just because of 1mm of a needle, i couldnt belive it, obviouslt with my insulin ratios changing the 5mm needles werent delivering the insulin deep enough and so it was like it wasnt working!

So things are sorted now and i am feeling myself again....bit annoyed i now have to use the longer needles but hey i havent really got a choice :)